I know I have been a little MIA lately and I have to apologize for that. The truth is I have been on a mission to try and redefine myself again. I know that seems cliche but since things changed a few months ago, I have been trying to decide what would make me feel really happy at this time while finding what I want to do. I have also been worrying about money to an almost obsessive degree. This has really annoyed me because I just want to keep myself that we are fine. We have savings. We have assets. We have food in the cupboard and a roof over our heads. Despite this, I can’t seem to shake this feeling.
This blog has been a God-send for me. It has given me the opportunity to write and even make some money. In fact, I have been very pleased with the money this blog has generate. Last November was my best month ever.
The reason I say all this is because I am trying to be positive. I don’t know why I have always been so worried about money. I really think its how I was raised. We didn’t have a lot of money and I had to work at an early age to get things for myself. Maybe it is because I always feel the need to provide for myself even though my boyfriend works and makes a steady paycheck. This annoys my boyfriend to no end as he wants me to think of ourselves as a unit. Crazy, huh?
I am making a conscious effort not to be so uptight about money. I am trying to be frugal as always but I am trying to be more realistic about money and not worrying about it so much. I do have a history of worrying about money. I know I can but it is hard. Is anyone else nutty like me?
Perhaps I should start doing more appreciation posts? Hmmmm….